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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Seruan Hatiku


I dont know who you are
But my love is for you
He who I wanted to give this song...
GONE...

And He who will come and grab my hand
I will love you with all my heart
In the name of Allah
When I am "halal" for you
All myself belong to you and only you~

Dear, husband-to-be who I dont have any idea how you look like...
Listen to this
I will love you with all my heart
FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

~In Shaa Allah~

The Moment

Here am I...
At The Moment of my Suffer 
After losing you from my life...
Walking through this pathway where I don't know where it ends

The Moment of My Happiness
Allah always give me one...
The Moment of longing for you
It will never stay...It fades away~

The Moment of My Loneliness
Living in The Moment without you...
How it hurts...
Do you feel The Moment of my suffer?

You never know coz
You just walk away
You just leave me with no traces
You are leaving all the burden on my shoulder

The Moment of Waiting
Feel like it has been years time flies by
While it takes several months
The Moment of The Truth


~A pathway with no ending but will be guided by Allah~

Heart, You Must Be Strong!!!

=)

panda_eyes_girl

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Do You Have Any Idea How Much I Miss Sir Wan Zul Azmi

Time flies by...

Al-Fatihah~

How are you Sir? Do you have any idea how we miss you very much? We do miss you very much and for that we will always pray you are happy in the world you are staying now~

Sir, I'll definitely go to Kelantan and visit you again this year...Definitely will do that...We will never forget you for what you have done for all of us~

panda_eyes_girl

Monday, January 28, 2013

The pain comes again~

I thought it has fade away but then now my chest it starts to become painful again...very painful...i thought this feeling has come to an end but it does not...I just miss him very2 much...Hey why is this happening...Oh Allah, please let me know what I should do to get rid of him...tear his name away from my heart??? Please!!! I cant be like this forever~ I need him but I know I can never have him...NEVER!!!

Open your eyes,Jannah!!! Back to reality!!!

heart is sooo painful...Be strong oh heart~


Sunday, January 27, 2013


Pernah sudah ku coba tuk melupakanmu
Namun aku tak mampu oh kekasihku
Tlah ku coba tuk jalani semua
Rasa cintaku yang tulus untukmu
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net
Jauh sudah ku jalani arti hidup ini
Yang ku harap dapat buat ku berdiri
Biarkanlah ku jalani semua
Tanpa dirimu di sisiku lagi

Ku tahu aku sungguh mencintaimu
Tak mampu redupkan luka di hatiku
Biarkan ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Walau ku tak mampu

Sudah ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Meski ku masih ingin mencintaimu
Biarkan ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Walau ku tak mampu

Uoooo, uoooo, uoooo
Ku tahu aku sungguh mencintaimu
Tak mampu redupkan luka di hatiku
Biarkan ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Walau ku tak mampu

Sudah ku coba untuk meninggalkanmu
Meski ku masih ingin mencintaimu
Biarkan ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Walau ku tak mampu

(ku tahu aku sungguh mencintaimu)
Biarkan ku coba untuk melupakanmu
Walau ku tak mampu oooo

P/S: KU TAHU KU SUNGGUH MENCINTAIMU~
Ku tak mampu oooo

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Checklist For Me to Make Myself As Busy As A Bee


Ok Here Is My Checklist to Make Myself As Busy As A Bee and to avoid thinking much about him:

Daily Checklist:
  • Prepare breakfast for the family
  • Reading my trilogy novels
  • Cooking and keep cooking til I dry haha
  • Updating my diary...=)
  • Meet my lover up there 5 times a day and more maybe to express my love for Him...In Shaa Allah
  • Jogging
  • Movies marathon
  • Dinner with family
Weekly Checklist:
  • Cleaning my room
  • Tidy the house
  • Cleaning cars (any cars)
  • Attend driving classes
Monthly Checklist:
  • Travel anywhere I want (jungle trekking bebeh)
  • Bandung Visit??? (not sure yet)
  • Improve my driving skills
  • Download songs and movies perhaps
  • Hang out with friends!
P/S:Yeap I can get rid all of those feelings when I am Busy...yes3




Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Stressful Day!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...

Ya Allah I think today is a stressful day for me...Why? Coz I answered easy question with complicated and wrong answer...MasyaALLAH what a careless mistake...Another thing is heart still in pain and feel like it has been torn apart...How do I live without the ones I love when everyday I see him goes online, I know he is there and then I sent message but he never reply...LOL~

Anyway "Les Miserable" hurmm I want to watch it if I can find it...Another thing is...Am I able to cope with this feeling...the feeling of pain, the feeling of loneliness...I have no idea about that...2 more papers to go...the next paper is Operations Management which will be tested tomorrow at 2.15pm-5.15pm...Hurmm what should I do? Brain is getting heavier and heavier with the problem which I know will never fade in my whole life...

I dont blame anyone nor myself coz Allah has His own plan...You know what people? CINTA or LOVE is something that is sooo sweet either between you and your lover, between you and your family or between you and your friends...The spread of LOVE has no word to describe how wonderful it is...All in all appreciate any LOVE that surrounds us...

A moment we spent upset is actually a moment we lost the happiness in life

P/S: Heart needs to be strong...Our memory, I will never ever forget in my whole life...You are the love of my life and one of the best things that ever happened to me

:)

Saturday, January 12, 2013

TURNING INTO PANDA


panda_eyes_girl

my eyes is getting "panda" and more "panda" everytime...I keep crying when I keep remembering about him...Hurmm I slept at 9.30p.m. and I woke up at 11.30p.m. with no intention to actually woke up from my sleep...Anyway, after that I keep crying and crying until 2.00 a.m. Is it worth it to cry for him? I MISS HIM VERY MUCH AND THAT'S ALL I KNOW...

Obina, how I wish I can hear your voice, your laughter, looking into your eyes and love you more than you love me...I don't know what's with this thinking...All I know it is very hard for me to deal with this feeling! Really2 hard...

panda_eyes_girl

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

All About Us

"All About Us"
(feat. Aaron Gillespie)

Take my hand, I'll teach you to dance
I'll spin you around won't let you fall down
Would you let me lead? You can step on my feet
Give it a try, it'll be alright

The room's hush hush and now's our moment.
Take it in, feel it all and hold it
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We're doing this right.

[Chorus:]
'Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love
Spotlight's shining it's all about us
It's oh, oh, all
About uh, uh, us
And every heart in the room will melt
This is a feeling I've never felt
But it's all about us

Suddenly I'm feeling brave
Don't know what's got into me
Why I feel this way
Can we dance, real slow?
Can I hold you, real close?

The room's hush hush and now's our moment
Take it in, feel it all and hold it
Eyes on you, eyes on me we're doing this right

[Chorus]

Do you hear that love? They're playing our song
Do you think we're ready? Oh, I'm really feeling it
Do you hear that love? Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love? They're playing our song
Do you think we're ready yet? Oh, I'm really feeling it
Do you hear that love? Do you hear that love?

Do you hear that love? They're playing our song
Do you think we're ready yet? Oh, I'm really feeling it
Do you hear that love? Do you hear that love?
[Chorus x2]